Wow... rant of mood swingish girliness...

So, it's Sunday, which would make it the first day of my weekend. Glee!

I can't decide what to do with myself. I woke up around 7AM planning to veg out until everyone else woke up, but ended up cleaning windows.

I had promised myself that the next time I got online and none of my friends were on, I'd take the time to back up all my files and wipe my hard drive (it needs it baaad!). Turns out, I have over 6 Gigs of shit to back up and only two 700MB CDs left. That's not even counting my MP3s, as some of them *cough* were obtained illegally through P2P and Zy said that's probably where most of my problems came from. No big... the ones that are available in the USA are 99c if I want them back later.

I need a nice big flash drive, or an extra hard drive. *adds to giftmas list*

I got butt hurt at Zy last night. I talk funny sometimes... I do it on purpose, it's not like I'm retarded. I've been doing it for years, but stopped abruptly when he and Ruby decided to mock me for it.

I use words like "sammich" and "wrubbins" and "wuff". Sometimes I leave articles out of sentences (such as in my profile). I was under the impression he thought it was cute, so when they teased me at first I responded with a "Hey! Fo' shizzle, mah nizzle!" roughly translated to "See? It could be worse."

Zy retaliated by balancing a couch pillow on my head. Giggles ensued.

The first couple of minuets of teasing was cute, but after a while it made me wonder if the mocking actually meant that they found me annoying or stupid, especially since he didn't stop when I said "Okay, enough." which quickly upgraded to "knock it off" and yet the mocking continued. Feelings were hurt and although Zy went appologetic, I went to bed early. I wasn't mad... just kinda off center and wanting to be away.

That was a major problem with Leif. Zy never understood when the mocking went past friendly bantering to full out attacks on my character, and after a while that's all it seemed to be. In my mind, by laughing and never once saying "Hey, asshole, she's got feelings you know - shut up," I feel like he encouraged it. He said I should have told him to shut up myself, and that Leif was trying to help me better myself as a person by forcing me to grow a backbone.

I call bullshit: Leif just wanted the "annoying girlfriend" out of his socializing with Zy. I felt like I was forced to either expose myself to this guy or never see my boyfriend again... Zy hung out with him almost daily. If I'd told him to shut up it would have degraded into a fight, and I am not smart enough to win a battle of whits and insults against Leif Clennon. He is living proof that you can be smart and an asshole at the same time... then again, in corporate America, that's not really such an odd notion.

Is it really that old fashioned to think that since he's Zy's friend, not mine, that it should have been Zy's place to tell him how to sit and spin?

I guess getting upset last night was irrational and maybe a bit post traumatic. I'll have to work on that.

Meh... I think I need to eat breakfast. I wish Zy hadn't gone to bed at 5AM so I could get him up for pizza.