This might be TMI

I feel like a freak.

Yet, I don't see it as a bad thing.

Goths and punks are cool... why? Because non-conforming is a fancy way of saying one is unique? Individual? Different? Being abnormal is desirable?

Why?

Is it because being yourself - whoever that may be - creates freedom?

If that's the case, why should finding joy in freaky, weird ass shit be frowned upon?

I just had a major nose bleed, and by random craziness rather then get some tp and deal with it I let it drip into a chinese tea cup for a while, for no reason. When I got bored, I decided that instead of throwing it out I might create a little chaos by encouraging my magic practicing room mate if he wanted some blood, just for the sake of random stock.

He said "Nah man... only time I ever use blood is to do something to the owner, but thanks!"

So I went to try and clean the cup out and found that it had become a solid lump of tissue and I was like "Cool... o.o it's like a little organ!" and I dumped it out in my hands and was playing with it.

I was fascinated by how it got my hands completely bloody but didn't seem to be actually dissolving, and how smooth and soft it's texture was.

At one point I contemplated tasting it, because it was blood and few people really know what blood actually tastes like... then I remembered it came out of my nose and although I'm not sick at the moment that just seemed gross.

I didn't taste it. But eventually I did get bored with it, and I let it go down the drain, then washed my hands feeling oddly giddy.

It's fun to be a freak.